Are You Comfortable?

I treated myself at Synergy on Saturday morning to my first full body massage since attacking cancer.  It was another funny initial experience.  I need extra pillows under my stomach and above my chest to keep my boobs from being directly on the table.  The area where my port was is still tender and the tissue expander is getting a little more uncomfortable as times progresses.  Think partially deflated kick ball...  The therapist Lynn, gave me two types of pillows, and a bunch of towels to get myself situated.  By the time she came back I was all discombobulated, sweating bullets with a nice hot flash, and had forgotten to take my glasses off.  She helped me get comfortable with my forehead well supported so I wouldn't have to use the head cradle in the traditional way.  We were both laughing by the time she could begin.  I'm a lot of work I told her.  I asked her to concentrate on my tricky right side.  She worked out as many kinks as one can in the hour.  My shoulder from front to back is just so tight and I didn't realize how tight the clavicle area was until she started kneeding it.  Her touch felt great though and I was able to relax and let some of the physical tension go.  I need to focus on getting some more kinks worked out as I move forward...  This seems like a heavenly task to take on for a bit.  I slept soundly without chemical aid on Friday, but these bloody hot flashes kept me writhing last night.  So you can understand why I can snooze in a massage or an ECHO.  I'll relax however and whenever I can!