Nice Melons

I'm eating very well and even had the stamina to prepare these beauties.  What I continue to share are my thoughts as I progress and these melons, nicely paired I might add, are a perfect segue to share I am strongly considering - a prophylactic mastectomy of my left breast.  I really struggled approaching the mammography day this July.  It was at the same time as being diagnosed last year and in all honesty I lost my faith in mammography.  With dense breasts, and now only one, it left me with forboding thoughts.  I have been able to put my head down and stay in the game for all of this, but this process really shook me up.  As we met with Dr McKee after to review the results "normal for the parameters of dense tissue" it immediately brought me to the question.  Since my reconstruction is coming up in 2012 is it possible to have both a prophylactic mastectomy and reconstruction at the same time?  Poor sweet Bill - he damn near came out of his chair and said "wait a minute, wait a minute... are these the drugs making her talk like this?"  Yeah the Arimidex can have depressive side effects, but I felt clear as a blue sky kind of day.  We talked at length that day with Dr Mckee and then with Dr Hammond this past Thursday when I went in for chemo.  What I face if I don't is imaging every six months for the rest of my life.  Mammography , then six months later and MRI.  I want a better quality of life than that.  I want a better state of mind than that.  We'll meet with Dr Marble too and then make a final decision.  Dr Hammond seemed to put Bill's mind more at ease and Dr Marble can show a fun little picture show of possible boobs to pick from her wonderful catalog of healed patients.  I actually feel more relieved.  I feel like I get to leave something behind as I walk forward.  Each day I get stronger and I think making such a huge decision like this is just a testament to my strength.  Your support of me and Bill and make the days easier.  Thank you all.