Dr. Hammond Knows

Saw Dr. Hammond last Thursday for my appointment before chemo.  My levels are good.  Why am I so off?  With is wise smile, full of compassion he tells me it's not the chemo it's the oral drug I need to take for the next 5 years.  Of course all of this was reveiwed before the protocol began.  The drug, the significant side effects...  I know I've said it before but I can't quite convey what getting this shocking diagnosis does to you.  I have put my head and heart into the game to beat it full tilt.  I listen to all the information, read the data, read the supporting documents and absorb. Even with each protocol I have tried to approach each one, each time or day with positive thoughts and decent humor.   Each time I take on one more piece to this treatment though it does require mind reshuffling.  I am regrouping and finding my positive thoughts.  I do need a positive powwow and will be planning it shortly.  Meanwhile you have continued to hit my site during my silence.  Almost 11,000 views and I hold them dear.  Forgive my periods of silence.  Some days I need to hold onto all my energy for my warrior moments.  I do hold you all so dear and your continued support means EVERYTHING.  This is a long long time to do treatment but I am so grateful you follow along as I continue the trial drug and have started the 5 year protocol.  I'll take all the positive vibes you can spare.  I'm thinking of creating my own medicine man pouch to carry them all with me.  Maybe the pouch and a flask.  What!?  I can have a drink every once in awhile.